Just Following My Bliss

The excitement I feel when I think about our trip to Croatia/Montenegro is so BIG.  Like being in love BIG, with similar energy that draws me eagerly back to thinking about it over and over again.  It’s like being pregnant with vacation.  My brain really has no space for other stuff!

I have been wrapped in the beautiful blanket of trip planning for the last 10 months at least.  Was I using it as a buffer to NOT think about my partner’s cancer diagnosis?  I sure was. 

And that’s just fine! 

Wrapped in my cocoon of travel bliss, my partner and I gave nearly zero attention to the tumor he was fighting with chemo and radiation.  We focussed on the day to day process of working around or through whatever side effects he was having, so that he was as comfortable as possible, without ever really giving attention to the tumor, or worrying that it might be an instrument of death.  I took over his day to day tasks of grocery shopping, cooking, and dog walks, along with running my coaching practice and bringing my massage practice back online after covid.  But in the free time I had left after all that, I found little motivation to blog, or promote my business, or do much of anything besides create a plan for our trip.

If it wasn’t fun, or didn’t feel urgent, I didn’t bother.  Blogging didn’t feel urgent, so I just let it go.  And I’m OK with that, which is a definite improvement for me!  In the past, I would probably have beaten myself up for not sticking with a professional commitment, or worried that I might be disappointing others (my beautiful readers).  

So it is a real miracle that I simply accepted all of it without judgement, and just let myself enjoy the distraction.  I did what was necessary and just let the rest go!  And that wasn’t the only miracle.  When the doctors ordered an MRI to assess the tumor before scheduling surgery, they could no longer FIND a tumor.

I sincerely believe that the positive energy we maintained was a major influence in his healing.  I also believe that focussing on Croatia and Montenegro was a major influence on our positive energy.  The trip has been more than a carrot, more like a light at the end of a dark period of quarantine.  Covid, wildfires in California, and constant chemo sessions have kept us confined for more than a year.  We are READY to travel, and have we got one hell of a trip planned for September!

What did I create?

My dream vacation!  Jeremy and I have been focussed on going back to Croatia since 2017.  I have had a ball deciding which cities to visit, choosing accommodations with water views, researching restaurants, museums, and historic sites to visit.  I have been enjoying virtual tours in Croatia to get a better idea of what we’d like to see, and places I want to shoot photos.  I created an itinerary that shows maps, accommodations, and all the fun stuff that we are looking forward to in September, so my mom can follow along and see what we are enjoying each day.  If you are interested in the details, click HERE.

What did I learn?  

I learned that being strong does NOT mean doing everything that needs doing.  Sometimes being strong requires letting go, or losing focus for awhile.  Energetically speaking, sometimes the most important thing we can do is let go, get lost in the flow of something that brings us joy, and TRUST that the Universe will handle the rest, and inspire us to new action when action is required.

Grow on!

What are you focussed on that might flow better with a little less attention?
How willing are you to let go and let God, or let go and trust the Universe?
When was the last time you got lost in the flow of something just for fun?
What was that, and how can you bring more of that into your life?